It has been awhile since I have written anything… BUT, the wolves are back after a long hibernation.

I have been reading a lot lately, making changes long overdue. Made amends with knights and beasts – created some new ones – rode them, slayed them and forgave them. Found the joy of enjoying other’s happiness, celebrating the small joys and living with gratitude. The beauty and art of saying no without explanations, helping strangers and laughing at anything you possibly could. Realizing what matters and who don’t, picking your battles wisely and eating chocolate for breakfast. Time has been kind in a cult-like way. I have been falling for many new things (and older things), I have rediscovered music, nature and love (in various forms). I have been trying new things, new people, new friends and after feeling the dark edges & cuts of The Fool’s betrayal, I walked barefoot into a new world. I have been adding tattoos to the story of my existence, I have laughed hysterically, cried once or twice and I have found questions to answers and vice versa. I have discovered my love of plants and incense and dogs and sushi and carpentry and family and friends.

I have thought about you and you and you, considered calling you and you and you and I did call you and I didn’t call you and I am still deciding about you. I have made friends with that old heart of mine and realized things play out exactly as they should as we build a new friendship or rather a state of acceptance and just being cool with each other. I have remembered things about other you’s which I miss in fleeting moments of nostalgia – but not enough to tell you. I have absolutely been obsessed with music and making my surroundings beast free.

And then, there is that goddamn smile of a certain YOU that I can’t wait to see. I think about that YOU all the time and even though I sometimes still feel angry/hurt about The Fool and his actions, I close my eyes and focus on those 67 seconds YOU showed me and I know every single thing has been the map to lead me to here.

So these hibernation months led me to this: Fuck the past. Start new. Even if people / circumstances from your past comes along on that journey, just make damn sure they know  ‘non of the old shit’ vibes are welcome. Please check your baggage at the door.

We are back bitches.